That is the question that I asked my self as I slipped back into my shell. All of the usual tricks I use to pull my self from the darkness that casts over me, where lacking there normal magic. With no stone unturned I persisted, refusing to cascade over the edge again. But frantically as I looked I found no cure to my haunted state. So I began to wonder how many other people feel the same way I do and can not, for the life of them, find a safe outlet. And even more so, would anybody even care? Will anybody read this? My optimism is not high but if even one person can find solitude in my empty shell than it was worth it. The ups and downs of life are not what we are told of as kids scurrying across the playground. Never once did our parents or teachers say when you grow up do you want to be sad? Lonely? or even depressed. But that is what happens. Although this is just an off night, I'm sure, I find them coming much more frequently than what society dubs as normal. But does that really matter? If I am not normal, most would say so. There was a point in life were I would pride my self on how unique I thought I was. Little did I know that was just another lie that life was feeding me. So life I stand before you, awaiting judgment I know will come, and I laugh. How can this be when I spent hours crying before? For I realized that I am not alone. No matter the fact that there is nobody to turn to, my family unburdened with the nightmares of my mind. Friends to busy with there own skewed view on societal norms to bother checking up on a friend who is quickly slipping through the cracks. Even measures put in place to prevent an outstanding citizen such as myself have fallen by the way side, the voice on the other end of the phone cracked and distorted, as if reading from a predestined scrip. And that's when it came to me. There were others out there, feeling just like me, falling with no hand to grasp them. So I lay this out before you, do with it what you may, a haven to those with no place else to go. Even if tomorrow your feelings will have changed, those thoughts that haunt you here and now let them flow from your fingertips and your mind will rest easy if only for an hour.
